a rolling stone gathers no moss....

....as the vagina of a motivated girl gathers no dust.
This morning started with a goal met. I've had a lovely couple of days off. On Monday I watched a bunch of the L word. Being a showtime program, the L Word contains a bunch of graphic nudity and steamy sex. As I was starting to really get into, my fiance came home from work. Drat, I thought. Tomorrow will be masturbation Tuesday. But come Tuesday morning, my fiance claimed defeat to his achy back and stayed home. So today, Wednesday, I left nothing to chance. As soon as I was fully awake, the vibrator was out. Then I ate a tangerine. A good morning. I finally finished "For Yourself" just half an hour ago. Did not care for that book. I did, however, learn that Paps are specifically to check for uterine cancer. I felt a little dumb for not knowing that already, but maybe it's like brushing your teeth. You know it's good for you and you're supposed to do it, but its hard to remember the whole laundry list of benefits it accomplishes. "Why should I brush my teeth? ... It's good for me." is usually sufficient motivation.
Later today, I'm going to finish a knitting project that I've literally been working on  for years.
A sense of a achievement can be almost addictive, especially during winter break, when there's no sense of achievement to be had from school.
There is a verb form of fellatio- to fellate. But can you do that with the female form?Is it possible to cunnilingate someone? I'm curious.
Anyway, the other night I asked my fiance to cunnilingate me, and he finally did. Yay hot foot sensations!
But, as I'm sure I've mentioned before, cunnilingus is a hard thing to come by in my bed. Despite bringing home dental dams and trying to seek out more comfortable positions, my requests for it (and I always have to specifically request it) are met with unhappy noises and hesitation, even when my fiance is already signed on for intercourse.
Here's the problem: how does one tread the line between advocating for one's needs (in this case, cunnilingus is the one thing that makes me feel consistently close to orgasm) and being inconsiderate and demanding (this latest encounter was the first instance of cunnilingus this month, and not for lack of trying on my part).

i did something for my sexual health today. yipee!

That video showed up last week. FINALLY. Watched it today-- meh, somewhat interesting and helpful. I also re-committed myself to finishing "For Yourself".
I will really be glad I did this stuff today, since I now have to go and spend 16 of the next 24 hours at work. :)

two weeks til christmas

Broke my dry spell on Thursday with some meh sex. I don't know, just nothing felt right. But I am starting to feel the return of motivation, so that's good.
My friend gets here tomorrow, and I'm super excited to see her, although a house guest and finals will be... interesting... to juggle.
So, we're in the midst of the holidays, yay. I hope that whatever holiday you celebrate is full of joy and love. Sexy, sexy love. 

Oh yeah, I still have this blog....

I feel like nothing has changed. Blech.
I feel like I'm not having any sex, and I'd don't even really have the motivation to use my vibrator on myself. That is some serious laziness.
I am supposed to get my aforementioned video in the mail this week, after almost an entire month. Apparently the woman's cat vomited on her computer. I guess you get what you pay for....
I started reading For Yourself. I need to get back to it, but it is really dated and I hate it. Sometimes, (probably often) one person in a couple is less interested in sex than the other. In movies or TV, this person is always the woman in a hetero couple, and the situation is portrayed as funny. Even on a good day, I'm pretty sensitive about the fact in my relationship, this dynamic is reversed. And it is not funny. It is fucking hard. And this book is constantly saying "oh honey i know sex isn't enjoyable for you at all, but try this! and then you'll like it!" So I feel like my ...abnormality .... is always being thrown in my face. However, it was assigned as long term homework and I feel obligated to finish it.
I am taking Human Sexuality from my sexologist next semester, and I'm pretty excited about it. Last Tuesday I went to a class to see what it was like, and also because my sexologist said I should. It was the class on sex positions, and it was cool to see what I have to look forward to.