The Eve

Okay, the rest of the list:

Two Step is a book, technically. But it can't be more than 20 pages of actual text. It’s mostly illustrations, and it's about intimacy and relationships. The author theorizes that in every relationship there is a seeker and a sought, and this ultimately creates tension. To relieve this tension, it can be helpful to foster fluid seeker/sought roles. And that's the book. Food for thought....

Tub! Haven't gotten to do this yet, I'm hoping to have a chance when I come home for lunch tomorrow. My sexologist thinks, because I've reacted well to G spot stimulation from my fiancé, that I am capable of ejaculating. So she told me to masturbate in the tub and have my fiancé touch my G spot. So there's that.

 I have trouble with 'no means no'. I'll admit it. I don't understand 'not in the mood'. On my fiancé’s part, sex always leads to an orgasm. Sometimes it’s not even that much work. So to me, when he says he's not in the mood for sex, it’s on par with me saying 'no I don't want that amazing calorie free brownie that will fill me with endorphins for hours." I say no to sex if a) I'm exhausted or b) in pain.

 So my sexologist told me to have a conversation with my fiancé where I ask him what motivates him to say yes or no to sex, so I can be more empathetic and less rapist-y.

 Tomorrow is my last session... I want to express my gratitude and acknowledge how much change seeing her has brought me. At the same time, I don't want to come off as overzealous and creepy.

It will be so weird to not have sessions to look forward to at the beginning of the week.....

Good vibrations (yes i went there)

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Practice practice practice

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The calm before an awesome storm

I feel this kind of peace. Even though this is an ongoing process, my sessions are ending. And I feel like resolution is coming. I've often wondered, if orgasms happened regularly for me, would sex matter that much? An orgasm is not your world unless it doesn't happen. Like how money doesn't matter if you have all you need.

Winter is coming, a financial burden has been lifted, and I feel secure and loved.
Sappy sappy sappy.....

The beginning of another lovely week

I love talking about my sexuality. Its a really good thing that I have this blog, or all I would do after my sessions end next week is overshare with every friend I have, all the time. At any rate, my sexologist says she wants to keep in contact with me until I become orgasmic. I thought that was pretty cool, and makes me feel that even if this doesn't happen for me by next week, I am not alone! Yay!
So, here is a video my sexologist told me to watch. Its kind of intense. It's a music video, but I listened to it on mute. It's like thirty different people masturbating, but you only see them from the neck up. It's pretty interesting.
http://www.clevver.com/music/video/29085/the-sun-romantic-death.html
And this one's kinda freaky, but if you're into science.... It shows the changes a cervix goes through- over the course of a month, or a lifetime. 
http://www.beautifulcervix.com/cervix-photo-galleries/photos-of-cervix/#comment-612
More later, adoring public, more later.

hot off the presses

Last night included more miraculous foreplay, along with the discovery that when I do come, it's going to be pretty loud. I'm thinking about soundproofing.

the crush of midterms

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